My surgery

Four days I’ve been here. In bed. Thinking. Watching. Hearing. Physical pain in my neck at 5:00 a.m.
Can’t move my head so fast. Can’t look around. Can’t stand up by myself. Can’t go out.
Movies. TV. Mom. Soft food. Juice. Pills.
Crazy dreams at night. Crazy dreams awake.
So many days indoors, I may go crazy.
Mom: I really love you. Thank you.

“A pill to make you numb.
A pill to make you dumb.
A pill to make you anybody else.
But all the drugs in this world
won't save her from herself ·”.
(Marilyn Manson).